this thing we call growing up

is really nothing more than becoming yourself.
a new and improved version
there should be no great leaps or bounds
but a general progression to what ever mark you have set at the 'end'
you will become who you are meant to be
weather I'm here or not
though I hope to witness your transformation for myself
what seems to you a high velocity metamorphosis
 
It is true that you can no longer be a child
as a child is; not logical
and this phase that is coming up i your life
requires the logic of a maturing individual
requires the very maturity of your age
though it seems to me that you have had that maturity all along
just failed to use it to your advantage
kept it quite so that you might not have to have that responsibility thrust upon you
and I don't blame you for a second
I would have to agree with that idea
its much easier that way
to not have much expected of you
 
as much as you call me the catalyst
I may also be rushing you
because I need you to be this 'grown up' individual
I need to be able to count on you
and I hope that doesn't hurt you
 
I am ever so sorry if I ever did injure you
in anyway
and I know I have
I can see it in your eyes sometimes
and I have no excuses that would excuse these trespasses
I can any apologies for then then and now again
 
It's interesting isn't it?
both of us have said the same thing;
that we will not let go until the other tells us to
looks like we're in this for the long hall then eh?
though, in truth, I can not see myself with someone else
only with you
but I fear that this vision of the future will change and fluxuate with time
and that I may loose you
that you will fade away
and all I will be left holding is vapor
and my memories